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i need to ... get to my colour tcg trades (i'm sorry to oomfies waiting) but im full of soup and half asleep (went out today to celebrate w/family) and my brain is fixated so bad on trying out 11ty as a static site generator ... i'm caving to trying it out and maybe rehauling my entire site to be a simpler layout

i'm very much torn on wanting to leave my layout behind but i think i need to tear it down from zero and begin anew and try to make it easier on my brain to work on pages ... but it's a learning curve right now to learn how the fuck 11ty works and how i'm transferring portions and chunks of my site. thankfully im working on a different folder/layout altogether so it's not touching any part of my actual site

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Happy Saturday!

I'm going to be doing a little maintenance today. It will likely cause a tiny interruption of service (specifically for www.dreamwidth.org) on the order of 2-3 minutes while some settings propagate. If you're on a journal page, that should still work throughout!

If it doesn't work, the rollback plan is pretty quick, I'm just toggling a setting on how traffic gets to the site. I'll update this post if something goes wrong, but don't anticipate any interruption to be longer than 10 minutes even in a rollback situation.

i went stupidly ham on grabbing some of the zhongli URLs when reclaims opened up, i still have a few i need to decorate (namely one sylvie centric one, and one zhongvie centric one with the most popular URL ive got), but here are all my existing ones >:D

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it kinda sucks to be in a burnout for almost 2 years now, but to be fair my energy is also very scattered rn, and what art i am making is for my friend's book. i have very little drive to make anything for myself and that kinda sucks ass, especially with sylvie's birthday coming up

i wanted to finish this zhongvie wip piece i have that's partially done but even thinking abt doing art for my own self just makes my brain wanna wither and that sucks ass so bad, esp when art's been something i've done for a large part of my life. at least i DO have creative outlets, it's not like its just rotting inside of me, but it sucks when your primary outlet is burned out for so long :(

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mostly since asuraid i only tend to use on my art accounts and not personal ones anymore ... sighs im so stubborn when im set on a username, it makes me feel bad changing it!!! like hell i've been wanting to use zhongvie for my tumblr personal account for so long (i do have it saved for my resource blog at least) but

then i'd have to change all my links to my URL to the new one
i like sylviegirly as my personal username LOL

... but here i dont think i'd mind swapping to sylviegirly just to detach it more from my art persona online, even if it's also the username i tend to use as default if i have only a single account. maybe it's just partially paranoia of someone googling my art name then just finding all my personal accounts LOL

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so FAR i've been having a hoot reading off my kobo; having my reading off my devices (phone/iPad) has been really nice so i have zero excuse to be distracted by notifications and swiping to other apps instead of staying in the books, and i've been more inspired to want to read (while being mindful of my energy)

so far i've gotten through one of my books i've been very on and off with reading (Hollow Places by T. Kingfisher), and me and my friend are co-reading through the entire witcher series right now. i'm going to pick up Tress and the Emerald Sea by Brandon Sanderson next ... i do have the physical book i got as a gift for myself, but reading physical books is also a hit-and-miss for myself, so doing it on the kobo would be easier, plus it makes me happy to look at the cover i decorated for it LOL

i struggle with reading on my own (tbf in general i need a study buddy/body doubling/accountability buddy for non-vital/deadlined projects), but getting through Hollow Places on my own was really exciting for me, and it makes me wanna read more books on my own :3

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Type: Song
VSynth(s) Featured: MEIKO & Hatsune Miku
Link: https://youtu.be/VlEYzdfvupU?si=lyDO8rsTctwrp-T9

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Reccer's Note: One of my top favourite Vocaloid songs of all time!! I stumbled across this song on iTunes back in 2009 (on my ancient iPod Touch) when looking for shu-t's other songs, and it's been a staple of my playlist ever since :) If you like "Change me" and "Stay With Me" from Project DIVA, please check out shu-t's other works!! ❤

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by that i mean there's a weird hole where i dont have much to focus on rn ... even though i feel like I DO have stuff to do (final file transferring, setting up my partitions when my SSD comes in), books to read, games to play ... there's nothing i have that i can like. drill into? mm, i know i have these lulls when my brain is snacking to find a new fixation, it just sucks when im in those lulls and just find myself sitting idly with nothing that seems terribly appealing bc i dont have that Fix to jump to (even if it only lasts a day, or two)

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i miss actually working on stuff on my site, and pages, and my OC pages, but i think i've hit a weird snag of multiple things

wanting to redo my OC pages but not having the energy to scrap them from zero (i need to, the coding is messy)
having a backlog of reviews i wanna fill out for my media log but no desire to do it
no inspiration to work on my other WIP pages, or ideas for new pages
fixations are literally anywhere else like randomly revamping my deviantart page today lmfao

... maybe i just need to archive some pages and clean out what i'm not actively updating right now, and return them when i do want to work on them (media logs), or maybe i just need to wring out my other fixations until the site cycles back in

i wish i could say, i'm not 100% sure ... tbf i've been also overstimulated(?) today in feeling like my brain is being pulled in 5 different directions, and feel some anxiety balling in me, so i think i'm just very much overthinking right now. im sure itll quiet down eventually, but that's not Right Now

AUGHHHH FUCKKK I HATE BEING A PERSON WHO LIKES DOING NEW PROJECTS BUT LEAVES THEM HALF DONE!!!!! RIPS AT MY HAIR SADLY. the excitement of new projects and the drive to make them last a few weeks but then No More Interest and im here like '??? but this was exciting to u' and the brain is like 'not anymore'

Current Mood: anxious

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Type: Cover/song
VSynth featured: Kasane Teto
Warnings: Sexual content in lyrics
Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6XG1ewa9hI

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Reccer's notes: In LOVE with the way Teto is tuned here. It's unmistakeably her, yet her tone is a lot darker and more mature than usual Teto. The auto-tuney effects kinda remind me of Hachioji-P's Miku tuning as well. Also love the arrangement from PalmMute accompanying this track.

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still toiling through it for rainmeter skins ... at least logging on i do see more human-made art (stamps, actual art you KNOW is art by a person, crochet) but it sucks the site feels so un-usable and always will have that looming 'hi we're deviantart we fucking hate artists' energy across it. it really sucks to see your first art site still basically a shambling corpse of itself, and i feel little incentive to post on it

some part of me still wants to post on it, which sucks. it'd be nice if there was a stylesheet or something that morphed it back into old DA, but with how changed the site is, unlikely as hell :( still mad my normal username is hogged by a dead account

i wish i could use sheezyart more to actually socialize/interact but i feel little incentive to do so ...

edit: there WAS a stylesheet, but it sounds like it's been broken for the last year so alas. to be fair, even if i do decide to upload again, i have zero trust for ppl not scraping shit so i'm debating if i should put a more prominent watermark like this one below. problem is 1. cumbersome to do it to all of my existing art 2. i already upload my art at a lower resolution + quality than the full sizes if they're on socmed

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edit 2: ok i kinda cleaned up my devart page a bit and if i do upload im just gonna use the obnoxious devart watermark. idk why the site makes me more skeeved out to leave it w/just my usual signature

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i've had this commission from yomiyuarts for some years and forgot they also made a zhongli version, soooo matching dark and light theme modes GOOOO

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idk it just helps me to offload thoughts here USHDAUDHAS ok ... so my old laptop has been cleaned out completely, nuked all my old apps, redid the thermal pasting (scary) ... the issue we had is i couldn't transfer the extra 1TB SSD i had over to this one because the laptop would not boot without it ... despite the system being on a different SSD???????

fuckin wild. it is what it is, more annoying part is just losing big downloads like genshin's stupid 120GB ass which i'll need to redo here, and being cucked out of downloading my games fully until the new 1TB SSD comes in to install it into my new laptop. im more happy that the old laptop now is holding more normal temps when idling (50-70C), and since my dad's only gonna play old games (LA Noire, the old medal of honor games, fallout 3 and new vegas eventually) the system isn't going to be taxed that much with its CPU nor GPU

sighs, almost free of the stupid haul to a new laptop ... shit sucks!!!! the most that'll be left is just transfering the games from my dad's old OLD laptop (which was my first gaming laptop ever that i think i got back in 2016, its still alive aside from the battery being completely shot which whatever cause it can just be plugged in) and installing a dock hub w/the shitload of SSDs we have in docks

(my dad hoards EPUBs and old movies and stuff so it's a lot of Crap stored on those LOL)

do have a headache from straining my eyes in working on stuff (opening laptop + all the file deleting and temp checks and benchmarks etc)

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ACNL

it is raining!!! and i managed to catch a Coelacanth!!! and an oar fish and tuna, considering those are the giant sized fish shadows ... it is SO hard for me to differentiate between the 2nd largest and most largest shadows for some reason, even though i know they are different ... haunted forever by the sea bass. shampoodle has also been building for a few days now, and i was considering doing a bench public works, but all the places where i wanna put it is too close to other things so lmao :skull:

definitely one thing i prefer for new horizons is the freedom of outside decos ...

Warframe

god bless affinity boosters because i had 4 warframes i needed to level, and now i'm with a khora and wukong prime which i'll wanna build both eventually. gauss i just ... dont like his playstyle, so i'll most likely just sell his prime since its leveled now :/

(i should probably make an icon for my gaming logs but im out of slots bahaha)

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my old laptop has been vaguely set up for being our new "desktop", we still need to have a docking hub come in that'll connect to other USB stuff, but as it is now, it is working through the monitor and i found a position for the charger that'll let it stay connected consistently and without heating the charging pin. we still need to disconnect it and re-do the thermal paste on the CPU cause it being 95C consistently over doing basic tasks is ... not good at all :/

( desk setup )

otherwise i'm very happy it worked out, since i was worried abt the charger and my dad got upset i hadn't told him (for good reason bc i hate him being upset lmfao, i cry very easily when ppl are angry towards me or i'm stressed already)

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still in the process of moving everything, i won't have my entire game SSD in until saturday, but at least i got all my browser info moved over w/o anything being lost (pain in the ass). text looks so weirdly crisp here but it is a higher resolution than my previous laptop iirc ... i wish i could game test it haha, it's still not yet ready for me to move over completely to it until said SSD is moved anyway

20 year nap is needed after all of this is over. it's nice to be able to use a laptop keyboard again (the one on my current-soon-to-be-past laptop had the left side going out)

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i've been gathering files to migrate over to my new laptop, though i'm also limited to waiting until we remove the SSD from this laptop to move over (it houses all my games + projects and tools) so i can't really fully move over until we crack this one open ... once it's been cleaned out, as much as i wanna do a clean windows reinstall, i also don't wanna have to hunt down every driver again, so i may just have to spend a day gutting it of all my old apps and crap

we're gonna try to make it into a "desktop" aka sitting in one place and hooked to one of our big monitors upstairs, considering our actual desktop is ... maybe 15 years old and has not really been upgraded for a very long time. even fallout 3 was struggling to hit maybe 30-40 FPS

only thing i dread is that my charging port is absolutely fucked, aka it only works at certain degrees ... i do have a usb-c charger that does work with it, but my dad wants a docking hub to put in other cables so that'd take that hole lol ... sighs. yada yada work

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Title: Malcolm X (1992)
Type: 🎥
Genre: Biopic, History, Drama
Poor Summary: You know who Malcolm X is. If you don't, then basicallyyy he's a USian Civil Rights leader who preached black pride, self-defense, economic independence, conversion to Islam, etc. (along with other more insane things due to the nature of The Nation of Islam.) He used to be against segregation because he didn't think black people could ever get along with their enemies, but after performing the Hajj and feeling the unity of Muslims of all colors he changed his mind on calling all white people devils and his anti-integration stance. Unfortunately, he was assassinated not even a full year later in front of an audience which included his wife and daughters.

Why Did I Watch This??: I need to watch more Black movies, and this one had high ratings + I like history and was interested in the subject matter. I probably should've watched it last month though ^_^; I probably should've tried to watch like 5 Black movies last month, but the idea never came to mind. But hey! I can do that any month I like. Black history is always relevant.
Strongest Aspect: I'm not a movie guy, so don't expect big words from me. #1 is the colors. #2 is Malcolm's own words.
Favorite Part: Nelson Mandela at the end delivering part of a speech by Mr. X, and the cut to footage of Malcolm X finishing it. Did you know the cut was because Mandela just got out of jail and he didn't want to get in trouble with South Africa's government by saying anything that could be seen as encouraging violence? He didn't want that soundbite to be out there. So Spike Lee "got" Malcolm to say "... by any means necessary" himself.
Least Favorite Part: I don't have one. Whole movie was good, and that shit was 3.5 hours long LMAO. If I'm being held at gunpoint to give an answer, I guess the pilgrimage part didn't particularly excite me, but I think that's a skill issue on my part and not reflective of that... "arc" ? ???
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Current Location: i REALLY need to catch up on my reading page orz sorryyyyy yall
Current Music: Tougenkyou - Kagrra

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media: live action

... for colour tcg anyway. but where would i even put it ... i guess on my front page...? even tho that's already pretty chunky ... sighs fondly chin in hands. sylvie deck with zhongvie mastery pic ... (normal)

sylvie01

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logs of games and i really should be pondering a february wrap-up instead ... i gotta start writing that ... on a different semi-game adjacent thing but not really: im getting a new laptop today. my current one is still kicking and alive, but i talked about it here

Hollow Knight

grubs all found, and i've mostly been knocking out collectibles; the 15 hearts door was a little scary, but plopping a waypoint there and just teleporting back after using the 2 health charms + yoinking 2 extra hearts out of dirtmouth resolved it. my stupid ass forgot to pick up the ancient egg there though :/ i thought i'd have to backtrack to get out but nope ... been trying to do some of the dream variants of bosses and god damn it sucks LOL

tbf bosses that delete 2 hp bars and give you no breathing time to recover i do suck at. otherwise trying to finish the 3rd coliseum challenge and get more geo to at least upgrade my fragile health + greed charm before i start worrying about getting the unbreaking strength geo saved up (UGHHHH)

Tomodachi Life

first time i've had major fights happen between my married miis ... two of them to be honest!!! at least the fights worked out but thats insane

ACNL

mostly been focused on fossil collecting, i did a giant beetle hunt overnight and capped out my box (plus two sharks) since i'm trying to get enough bells for the museum renovation before i worry about other public work projects ... kid cat moved out fully, and i used an "amiibo" (coughs wumiibo) to get bob to move in and kick out rizzo. im pretty happy with my town rn ... i wouldn't mind if ed moved out but i also don't dislike him. marcie is still on my mild shitlist for reselling the mic i sold her (and her house is so out of the way of everyone else LOL)

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✧ lord of long haired megane men ✧

ough full of soup

Performing some traffic maintenance today

the joy of rentry decorating ...

sighs i miss making art

pondering if i should change my username here...

kobo updates

"So Labyrinthine" by shu-t

i Need a project

i wanna website code again

[COVER] Romeo and Cinderella (rock ver.) by PalmMute, 8月 (orig. by doriko)

deviantart

new desktop image time :)

more laptop yapping

game log #17 | march 6, 2026

ACNL

Warframe

laptop progress

writing from new laptop

i forget how much setting up new comps sucks

Sometimes Things Are Highly Rated Because They Are Good

i gotta make a fake sylvie deck

game log #16 | march 3 + 4, 2026

Hollow Knight

Tomodachi Life

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