MeganeHaven

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Burger King, opened the front door somehow therefore letting out his brother Gravy to roam the neighborhood for 6 days, while he stayed inside without him


Biscuit, keeps slapping and bullying Misophonia the great pyrenees who is so sweetie but has an incredible bite force that Would oneshot KO him, if he wasnt so loving around cats

1. What arts or crafts do you spend time on these days?
aside from digital illustration + merch design which im always doing, ive been slowly sewing my first plushie in almost 2 decades! that and making short comics, working on as 4 page one rn (:

2. What arts or crafts have you stopped doing, and why?
havent done my scrapbook in foreverrr, tho its not permanent! just havent had the drive... i have ideas written in a list, no motivation

3. What new art or craft are you interested in trying?
i want to try dip pens SO bad..! i wont have the funds to for awhile, but itd be nice for letters i write ! i do have my eyes on a few specific inks.. and a glass pen... so eventually! :D

4. Are you more of an experimental craftsperson, or do you tend more toward the traditional?
im not entirely sure i understand the question? but when first starting out w a new medium, i follow instructions until a get a little bit of a feel, then experiment until i get my own flow to it

5. Choose your favorite, and explain why: line shape form light color texture
torn between line or color— i enjoy lineart and coloring a lot, plus i get a lot of compliments on both! especially lineart. i cant figure out which to choose between them... but ive also been experimenting with line weight in recent months. very fun! so maybeee leaning that way?

so... i did not meet my goals. bc i went the first 2 weeks without my antipsychotics, as you all know. and july in general is a rough month for me irt grief. HOWEVER i will now share the 3 attacks i managed to do!! :D
(reminder that im team tragedy!)



Petunia for goodollouise
for a good friend of mine! i had fun experimenting w this, i think it turned out alright! :3




Epsilon for Aether_Artworks
another friend of mine! this is a heart button design, i just need to order more parts before i can print it haha. i adoreee epsilon and his relationship with aulus, a fave ffxiv npc of mine! <3




Larloch for AstralArts
THIS is my fave one i did this artfight!! the background is simple yet effective, and i think the rim lighting looks nice! plus his head popping out of the "panel" ... heh. i think its neat (:

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im proud of the pieces i did get done, esp considering the hell i was actively in that month lol. i cant wait for next year, and hopefully ill have an easier time!

ive heard of creative clash which i may try an event for, just Not anytime soon. id die. im taking it easy and drawing stuff for ME!! and.. some merch ofc... :3
i never stop having ideas lol, but my body holds me back. I DO MY BEST REGARDLESS!!

cant wait as well to see which team won !

drawing has been difficult for the past couple of months, for various reasons. honestly its been hard for longer than that  but i was focused on commissions for a bit over a year. hence little personal art or new merch.. trying not to force myself, but brimming with ideas and motivation sucks when chronic pain and just... freezing up.... gets in the way!

but im on commission hiatus now as i believe ive mentioned before! i intend on learning comics via drawing 2-4 page ones to start, and i also have merch wips to continue. also drawing self indulgent illustrations, be it ocs or selfship or More! i do intend on reopening commissions in the winter, i have one on waitlist rn. depending on how my health is, i might just only accept the waitlisted one then have comms closed longer. its less money and i need money badly rn, but i cannot hurt my health further.

anyways... since drawing is hard rn, maybe doing more with other creative hobbies of mine would help? obviously im still going to doodle and sketch as im able etc, but i dont want to burn myself out. i already do my daily journal, tho thats digital, but aside from that and digital art i also am into:

• vocal synth covers - tuning voicebanks + mixing the song cover, i work with UTAU and SynthV VBs. i have some finished covers i need to make videos for as well! ...once i have art for them lol
• scrapbooking - its fun, im just not good at composition for it haha. not that i need to be good! i have a good printer for art and photos to go in my scrapbook as well, tho maybe i should be saving the ink for merch i make since im super broke this month..?
• sewing plushes - i have a wip rn id like to resume, tho im relearning to sew after many years of hiatus! takes a lot of setup on the kitchen table to get started (which often has a lot of our roommates stuff there, so not always much tablespace available), dont have the space in our room— unless i temporarily move the couple of books and some stationary off my desk?? could make it easier!
• punch needle - i make small coasters and keychains. ive wanted to get more adventurous with my patterns i make for myself, rather than simpler stuff ive been doing. i want to make.... a lemon keychain and a matching orange... idk why but it calls to me!
• writing - i love to write prose about ocs, but i tend to freeze up a lot and get nervous w first draft and planning too. i usually need help from friends to bounce ideas and with editing. i have a very short piece rn im proud of! thats in the editing phase, waiting for more feedback
• bookbinding - i only do saddlestitch rn, but its very fun! i havent done this in awhile tho, for lack of writing or art to print and bind... previously ive done my own writing and friends works into small books
• wax seals - i love making them and i have a mat that lets me peel and save the seal for later! i just.. have been unsure what to use them for, so i havent in some time. maybe next time i send a gift package ill put a wax seal on the letter inside. or i could make a few in advance??

so many options... hard to choose... idk if focusing on a couple or bouncing between all would be good ? either way, id like to do my other creative hobbies more, ive been neglecting them.. aside from tiny bursts of vocal synth tuning and cover mixing.

if anyone has suggestions on how to help with drawing being difficult, commenting would be appreciated! same for suggestions with my other creative hobbies too <3
thank you for reading and tysm if you comment anything! doesnt have to be advice ofc lol

1. Who are your three favorite book characters?
im behind on novel backlog, so ill include manga characters as well. i feel like most of my fave characters are from games or are vocal synths haha

• Antarciticite from Houseki no Kuni (oughhhghgh Dont get me started)
• Qifrey from Witch Hat Atelier (the things i would do to this man both positive and negative. and also make out w him lmao)
• Wei Wuxian from Mo Dao Zu Shi (im still p early in but... still... also was torn between him or Lan Wangji ngl)

2. What are your three favorite things to wear?
i would say "my glasses" but thats a disability aid hmm. am i allowed to say my cane even tho im technically not wearing it? lmao

• my Necromancer Trenchcoat made by Morning Witch (i saved to go in for the first round of preorders, super worth it and ill never regret it!! i get sooo many compliments and i just adore it sm 🖤)
• this T shirt that has two skeletons embracing each other, labelled as The Lovers, all print in a rainbow gradient
• these pants that have HUGE 10" pockets, very lightweight and cool, stretchy and adjustable in a good way bc my weight fluctuates, and have a nice pattern on it that idk how to describe. Forgot where i got it... its literally an online shop for an indie brand i like!! fml cant remember name rn

3. What are your three pet peeves?

• when ppl use [redacted merch manus] despite knowing how shit quality they are just bc Popular and "Accessible". way more expensive too than just.. doing ur own research on alibaba or joining any GOs. even worse when they direct ship to customers without ever holding their merch in their own hands .. tho i dont fault ppl who just Dont Know (pls do research tho, running a shop is an investment and a BUSINESS), im peeved by ppl who DO KNOW
• this is less of a true pet peeve and more just.. unfortunate? but when other gay and trans ppl call Me Specifically, not umbrella, "queer" it always really bothers me. i grew up in the south (US), that shit was used against me sm after i transitioned as a child. idc when ppl use it for themselves or umbrella, you do you, but it sucks that most ppl ive asked to not call me queer either ignore the request or get mad at me ): it personally hurts me more than other slurs ive had thrown at me over the years
• man idk. i genuinely cant think of much, hence the previous not quite fitting the question lol

4. What are your three favorite TV shows?
idk overall forever tbh but

• Slayers (ive been rewatching it all by showing it to my bf for his first time!)
• oh my god why cant i think of anything
• ..... Lupin III (also showing my bf lol)

• walk more. im losing my ability to walk over time, faster than expected, so i wish i could walk more with less pain
• draw for a few hours a session. i can usually only draw 1-2 hours a session, closer to 1 hour, bc of chronic pain! ...why are two of these pain related lol
• make doujinshi ! tho this one im actively working towards, now that im deadline free w art!! just been having some trouble drawing the month of july, but im recovering (:

its late here so have this expression practice wip of Velaris beloved

lately ive often felt like, facial expression wise, my art is rather... flat? Subtle, perhaps? and considering im practicing comics (and now have much more time to do so with comms being closed), this is something i really want and need to work on!

the first expression (aka top left) is what i default to with Velaris. so i gave a shot at angry and wistful, and the pending 4th will be him crying. ill also be coloring these. but fr refs are a godsend, i mean i normally draw with character and pose refs and such. But still lol

wish me luck practicing facial expressions!!

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...i wanted to use the poll feature again, but it wont load rn lol. so tell me in the comments: which sketch is your favorite so far? <3

so ive been absent the past couple weeks, since i was out of my Very Important Medication aka my antipsychotics. i have some comments to reply to here, which i will get to! its just been hectic without that med, often i couldnt even read and understand words on my phone screen (was rarely on pc).

however!! friday i got 2 weeks worth of samples from my psychiatrist :D
slowly going back to my Normal amount of crazy... lol. i was hardly able to draw either while going thru it, which sucks bc its artfight rn! ive only done 3 attacks, the 3rd being a couple days ago. hoping i can do a couple or so more, even tho i likely wont make my goals..!

anyways. pls be patient with me irt to replying to comments! and perhaps ill share some art here soon again... (:

my artfight profile - MeganeHaven

team tragedy lets cry our way to victory!!

this is my 10th year participating in artfight! ive been excited for MONTHS leading up to this.. so far as of writing this, ive completed two attacks and been attacked 3 times :D
ill be doing my best for revenges, as my health allows (: (tho i likely wont be able to match effort, im more focused on sketches this year w few exceptions)

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goals:

• 4 sketches minimum
• 1 heart button (tho i need to order more parts end of month, so they wont be physical until after AF)
• 1 comic, 1-2 pages

to-do:

• finish rewriting Velaris Darcenell bio (want to summarize him and Einjar more conciscely + add a "present day" section)
• rewrite Einjar Brynholm bio
• upload Glory (adopt i got from a mutual!)
• upload Dashuri (my daughter aka my cat)
• upload Smokey (my cat i grew up with)

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if anyone else is participating, feel free to link ur profile in the comments here!! :3

ive been so exhausted and extra chronic pain that ive been Dying to make different entries here but Havent. mostly bc i prefer posting from pc, not my phone. rn i am coping a phone tho lol

ANYWAYS Dashuri's vet appointment went very well!! her bladder stone dissolved so she doesnt need surgery 🖤🤍
^(my Dashuri hearts. i have decided)

she will stay on her urinary diet prescription food for now, and the vet wants her additionally on prescription wet food since she cant have her usual... but Dashuri hates the urinary wet food!! shes sooo picky!! it took like 2 years after adopting her to find any treats she likes!! dire... we gotta call the vet tomorrow to see what we can do, meant to today but we just had. other doctors + pharmacy to contact (for my sake)

she didnt have a bday celebration bc 1. cant give her any non-prescription food nor treats for now 2. she was so tired after the appointment 3. we were busy having to wipe sm poop off of her bc she shit the carrier Right When we got home 😭 poor baby.. regardless tho! she still adores her new scratcher, beats the shit out of it frequently And rests on it! which makes me very happy (:

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this saturday (June 13) my mom and brother are driving up 7 hours to pick me and mat up, then next day driving back down to where they live! we will be staying for 2 weeks, including during my bday on June 22 :D
i havent been to texas since i moved over a year ago.. i was raised there, i miss it, but couldnt stay for so many reasons. i also havent seen my family in person in 6 months, bc they havent been able to visit (and when they do, its usually only for one day bc of their jobs).

im excited to see them tho! except for my moms husband, hes always hated me but maybe hell behave more now that im A Guest. plus mat will be there too and he doesnt put up with her husband trying to force me to do household stuff and more thats wayyyy too much for my spine and limited mobility (shoutout to when he forced me to unload and load the dishwasher 3 days after a major surgery, my hysterectomy. i got an internal tear from it that got infected .)

for my bday well be eating at one of my fave japanese restuarants, a local one that i shant name as to not doxx my family! lol. after that, going to daiso and kinokuniya (:

i hope the trip goes well, a little worried for Dashuri while im gone (shes often glued to me, at minimum by being in the same room) but my roommates will take good care of her! before i moved i had been on some trips without her, its just that since moving ive only ever been away for 2 nights (aka for a con). she will hopefully be fine tho..!!

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idk what to expect for my bday? idm not receiving gifts, ik my mom wants to give me money like id always ask growing up (im assuming around $50 - $100), but idk if friends are getting me anything? mat plans on making me something, just hasnt told me specifics ofc but i appreciate him sm :3

i think im only thinking about this bc of an ex friend group, ppl i was very close to, would mostly ignore me on my bday save for like. One person. id have liked to at least hang out in vc... tho tbf they treated me horrifically during a months long psychosis crisis (despite knowing im schizoaffective and saying they accept and respect me), to the point of traumatizing me and more. i know internally they cared about me.. but their actions never showed that. Why would good intentions matter if ur actions show the opposite? ):

...lets not vent too much here lol. either way, i mostly just hope to have a good day with my bf mat and family! and then after im home, itll be Almost time for artfight >:3

The merciless light destroys everything...
This body, these flowers are all burning up.
Goodbye, I'll go to sleep here now
And go towards the stars where you are waiting.

i really love how miku was tuned here! the emotion... auuu.. she truly is such a versatile voicebank, i love to see how sooo many diff ppl utilize her voice! :D

sadly the original uploads for this song are gone, so best i got is this reupload with fansubs. i love it sm tho...!

let me know your thoughts if you listen! <3